Yesterday was the first time I ever willingly relaxed and did very little, at least, the first time in a long time as I cannot recall a day like yesterday within recent memory. It was sorely needed, too, as I just feel, spent. I have been working a little harder than I should have been this week and paid the price. I now have a greater sense of how much I can truly do on a shoe-string budget, and how much effect having a decent diet could have, or a lack of a sufficient diet could have. I suffered from the later as I was unable to do my traditional monthly grocery run for my usual rations, and therefore my diet, and by extension other parts of my life, suffered from it. The benefits of relaxing and doing almost nothing yesterday allowed me to refocus my attention on the things that truly mattered, and to be able to efficiently and reasonably organize them in levels of priority. I will say towards the afternoon a part of me wanted to do something despite lacking the mental energy to do so. I did my best to abstain from those emotional desires as I refused to allow myself to burn out further. As the Small Faces would say, it’s gonna be a “Lazy Sunday afternoon, I’ve got no mind to worry, I close my eyes and drift away” into Monday tomorrow onward with a refreshed mind and body, while maintaining that newfound sense of resolve, and learning how to utilize it more effectively. Here’s to progress!!
Transformers: Let’s Hope, You Guys
Hey Y’ALL!!
Sorry for the long break in between posts, no I didn’t kill myself or get murdered to death yet, nor do I plan on it anytime soon. Just been busy suffering and moping about trying my best when I wasn’t a 30 year old angsty son of a bitch to make moves for a better tomorrow, and boy, does today particularly HISTORICALLY SUCK
2008:
Was forced into state custody around 1616
2018:
Last girlfriend decided to break up today
The September 18’s from 2008 to 2017, and 2019 to last year I’m not including because that’s just too damn depressing to list more than the worst offenders
However, HOWEVER yesterday I decided to make today a break in the pattern and embrace certain good parts of my past in a desperate gamble and effort to divert my mood today towards a more positive outlook. Around midnight tonight I started on making a final detailed reedition of the “classic style” of the fictional land I made, Hamedonia, which included every POI referenced thus far including cities, towns, natural landmarks, and other notable cartographic features.
I did that along with asking a dear friend of mine to help draw some of the OC’s I made in relation to a story I always wanted to do. As is I’m planning on completely redesigning Hamedonia and the other fictional lands I came up with on one unified concise planet, and overall organizing and cleaning up my lore in a more appealing, and easily digestible fashion whilst retaining it’s charm and wit. If I could at least finish IronHeart, and start work on Knives in the Sand afterwards, that’d be fantastic. I also have plans on continuing work on Wardens of Grovesden, a og Gameboy game I made a prototype of a while ago and never really did anything else with since, as well as possibly rebooting an old comic series I made as a teenager. Not to mention finishing the Howard Demos into proper songs and making a few more and slap them on a proper album. Big plans and goals each and every one of them, however, with faith, confidence, and follow through each and every one of them could be achieved if I truly wanted them to. I just need to decide deep down within myself, how badly do I wanna see these goals come to life? Let’s hope, you guys, and transform this bad day into a good day!
No Turtle, Still Happy
I ended up not messing around with my guitar and just worked on finishing a little side project from 2022. I honestly don’t remember when I recorded the cover, and the file timestamps are inaccurate. It would have been between Spring 2020 and Spring 2022 for sure. It was a vocal cover of the song “Transmission” by Joy Division. And I decided to pair it with an old video of me singing it to share with my friends. So, finally finishing an old project vs starting yet another one felt satisfying. Here’s hoping I can finally sleep even for a little as insomnia kicked my ass tonight.
Happy Turtling
Not a whole lotta people know this however, I’ve been struggling a lot recently. More so than the normal, of which I honestly hate as it was. It’s more hard-hitting when I want to express it through art, and yet I can’t seem to make up my mind on how. I did seem to hit a decent idea of making a track inspired by the famous hit from the Turtles, “Happy Together”, once I figured out a means to play guitar with the current skill level I have with it. It’s frustrating, I’m at a bit of a glass ceiling with it; however, if I can pull this off, it’ll improve my morale.
The OG Entries
I’m importing some of my older posts from this domain. To ensure historical accuracy, I only updated the formatting and removed some suffixes from the posts, such as the “01”. I plan on importing more from other domains later on; however, rest assured, the posts are not going to end with “Owner, Yusef Hamed” as that’s how I ended blog entries in 2004, not in 2025 onwards.
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