It’s weird to think just how old I am yet how young I am at the same time. It’s a real mind fuck. As well as this domain being as old as fucking Facebook (it’s technically younger by like seven months as Zuck’s domain was in April of 2004 and this one in November of the same year) yet I have tried for too damn long to update my end of Zucker’s microblogger megaadvertising slop rather than update this one. With his site pushing certain oddities onto me I say no more! I have this crown jewel of my entire online presence (it’s the oldest active piece of me on this world wide web, after all) as well as an… “extension” of sorts to plop my art on. As is I plan to transition EVERYTHING I EVER MADE ART WISE FROM EVERYWHERE to that domain over time, and exclusively update that domain first and see if whatever I made is worth uploading to the rest afterwards. As is I plan to not delete my socials and whathaveyou.. for archive sake on top of not allowing a means for dipshits to impersonate me, which believe me, is a bigger problem than I want to even acknowledge. I’m not going to promise regular updates on here, or anywhere really. I mean, for fuck’s sake, it’s been a “promise” that became a fucking running gag with one of my oldest series I eventually plan to reboot a second time. I am of course referring to The Whirled Report… formally known as Weekly Whirled Report.. and honestly during the original reboot, didn’t do too bad actually trying to maintain those weekly drops, however, it’s obviously something I was never great at doing, for valid reasons or just pure apathetic laziness, if I’m going to be blunt on that. Going back to the original feelings that sparked this entry.. I was working on an easter egg of sorts for way too damn long than it realistically should have, however the extended time came from two causes:
1. Stuck using Ubuntu instead of Windows for creative software due to my poor Bohemian ass being unable to afford even a cheap ass computer with the requirements for that damned 11 (Not chancing having stuck with Windows 10 from October last year on due to a random cyber attack every so often, even though I could have found a way to maintain it safely, didn’t trust my situation to maintain what I needed to maintain)
and 2. Didn’t quite realize quite how out of touch my Hall of Oates ass truly is… like the HTML code I initially used was way outta time.. like it was OG HTML I learned from Funky Chickens (actually visited it whilst typing this outta curiosity… and while it’s actually still online… because it hasn’t been updated since November 23, 2006 according to the site it broke at some point and is practically unusable.. sad really) so that was already a subconscious burn alone, however to make matters worse I didn’t realize at some point autoplaying media with sound enabled is a universal no-no now. Like I was scratching my head wondering if my code wasn’t working and apparently it was, just the browsers did not honor that outdated slop my stubborn ass churned out. So I ultimately had to redesign what I had in mind for the easter egg to be more modern and actually able to be not only used, yet enjoyed. And don’t worry, it doubles as the redirected page for the 404 error, god forbid your dumbass doesn’t know how to properly punch in an actual live and existing URL, at least you’d have a decent laugh. And at the end of the day (or beginning rather considering the time I’m writing this) laughing is a much, much needed and highly desirable commodity to get myself through this fucking muck I’m in. I may blog about bits and pieces or another brain dump a la this post sometime in the near future to just put it out there for those interested, on top of archive sake, of course. Until then, I can only hope for a Green Day as my jaded brain stews on this holiday down the boulevard of broken dreams to wake me up when this bender ends.
Relax-Say-tion
Yesterday was the first time I ever willingly relaxed and did very little, at least, the first time in a long time as I cannot recall a day like yesterday within recent memory. It was sorely needed, too, as I just feel, spent. I have been working a little harder than I should have been this week and paid the price. I now have a greater sense of how much I can truly do on a shoe-string budget, and how much effect having a decent diet could have, or a lack of a sufficient diet could have. I suffered from the later as I was unable to do my traditional monthly grocery run for my usual rations, and therefore my diet, and by extension other parts of my life, suffered from it. The benefits of relaxing and doing almost nothing yesterday allowed me to refocus my attention on the things that truly mattered, and to be able to efficiently and reasonably organize them in levels of priority. I will say towards the afternoon a part of me wanted to do something despite lacking the mental energy to do so. I did my best to abstain from those emotional desires as I refused to allow myself to burn out further. As the Small Faces would say, it’s gonna be a “Lazy Sunday afternoon, I’ve got no mind to worry, I close my eyes and drift away” into Monday tomorrow onward with a refreshed mind and body, while maintaining that newfound sense of resolve, and learning how to utilize it more effectively. Here’s to progress!!
Transformers: Let’s Hope, You Guys
Hey Y’ALL!!
Sorry for the long break in between posts, no I didn’t kill myself or get murdered to death yet, nor do I plan on it anytime soon. Just been busy suffering and moping about trying my best when I wasn’t a 30 year old angsty son of a bitch to make moves for a better tomorrow, and boy, does today particularly HISTORICALLY SUCK
2008:
Was forced into state custody around 1616
2018:
Last girlfriend decided to break up today
The September 18’s from 2008 to 2017, and 2019 to last year I’m not including because that’s just too damn depressing to list more than the worst offenders
However, HOWEVER yesterday I decided to make today a break in the pattern and embrace certain good parts of my past in a desperate gamble and effort to divert my mood today towards a more positive outlook. Around midnight tonight I started on making a final detailed reedition of the “classic style” of the fictional land I made, Hamedonia, which included every POI referenced thus far including cities, towns, natural landmarks, and other notable cartographic features.
I did that along with asking a dear friend of mine to help draw some of the OC’s I made in relation to a story I always wanted to do. As is I’m planning on completely redesigning Hamedonia and the other fictional lands I came up with on one unified concise planet, and overall organizing and cleaning up my lore in a more appealing, and easily digestible fashion whilst retaining it’s charm and wit. If I could at least finish IronHeart, and start work on Knives in the Sand afterwards, that’d be fantastic. I also have plans on continuing work on Wardens of Grovesden, a og Gameboy game I made a prototype of a while ago and never really did anything else with since, as well as possibly rebooting an old comic series I made as a teenager. Not to mention finishing the Howard Demos into proper songs and making a few more and slap them on a proper album. Big plans and goals each and every one of them, however, with faith, confidence, and follow through each and every one of them could be achieved if I truly wanted them to. I just need to decide deep down within myself, how badly do I wanna see these goals come to life? Let’s hope, you guys, and transform this bad day into a good day!
No Turtle, Still Happy
I ended up not messing around with my guitar and just worked on finishing a little side project from 2022. I honestly don’t remember when I recorded the cover, and the file timestamps are inaccurate. It would have been between Spring 2020 and Spring 2022 for sure. It was a vocal cover of the song “Transmission” by Joy Division. And I decided to pair it with an old video of me singing it to share with my friends. So, finally finishing an old project vs starting yet another one felt satisfying. Here’s hoping I can finally sleep even for a little as insomnia kicked my ass tonight.
Happy Turtling
Not a whole lotta people know this however, I’ve been struggling a lot recently. More so than the normal, of which I honestly hate as it was. It’s more hard-hitting when I want to express it through art, and yet I can’t seem to make up my mind on how. I did seem to hit a decent idea of making a track inspired by the famous hit from the Turtles, “Happy Together”, once I figured out a means to play guitar with the current skill level I have with it. It’s frustrating, I’m at a bit of a glass ceiling with it; however, if I can pull this off, it’ll improve my morale.
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